Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Peace be with you!

I really wish I was better at keeping up on what’s going on in my life. Recapping just gets to be too difficult and way too big of a job for my time and energy. I will do the best that I can…

I am happy to say that I received the position of Senior Resident Assistant (SRA) for next year. It was a difficult decision at first to make because of certain personal complications. Basically, in my heart and with a lot of help from someone I love very deeply, I decided to go for it because it’s a job I know I’d be good at. I hope none of you see this as a conceited statement. I have never been good at voicing my talents and my strengths. I have, however, learned so much about myself since I’ve been in Milwaukee and since I’ve been an RA. I applied for the position because I knew I had it in me to do it…and obviously someone agreed with me. Anyways, I am very happy and very excited.

There is more in my life than just a new job that is making me happy and excited about each new day. Besides living in the constant grace of my loving Father in Heaven, I continue to count the blessings He has given me in the recent past. Jake and I are approaching a month (yeah, it’s crazy, I know), and time has been flying by. We’ve had our moments even thus far, but God walks with us and continues to give us wisdom as we seek after His will for our relationship. Plus, he makes me laugh! Having been without a boyfriend for almost 2 years, I really had forgotten how much fun it can be and how nice it is to say goodnight to someone and be excited about the next time I get to see him. Or, when something during the day happens, saying to myself, “I can’t wait to tell Jake about that.” I truly feel like God could not have given me a more understanding, supportive, caring, and strong boyfriend and I’m praying that even with all of that that my focus will remain on following what God is telling us to do each and every day.

The quarter is almost over. Tomorrow is my last final and then it will be a week of blissful rest and relaxation. No trips planned, except home for a few days to help with some wedding stuff and spend time with my family. Jake is coming home to meet them and I’m really excited (I know, word of the day…plus it’s late and I don’t feel like trying to expand my vocabulary at this moment). Next quarter will be crazy-mad-busy, even though I’m only taking 3 classes (one is a 7 credit NU class). RA interviews start up fairly soon and I will start building on my SRA experience as Erik (guy who I am replacing) begins to phase himself out. Hopefully, I’ll be able to get away for spring break.

Melissa’s wedding is in a little more than 3 months. YIKES!! The invitations are getting addressed next week and before you know it I’ll have to make Bachelorette party plans. Good times, good times…

I pray that everyone out there has enjoyed their February as it is almost at an end. March will hopefully bring with it some warmth and some sunshine and some long walks by the lake and some picnics (hint, hint, hint…sorry, I have no shame). Have a happy Wish it were Spring kinda day!

Verse of the day:
"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for NOTHING, but in EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses ALL comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you."

PEACE BE WITH YOU.

Monday, February 20, 2006

I am the Luckiest

I don't get many thing
right the first time
in fact, I am told that a lot
now I know all the wrong turns --
the stumbles and the falls brought me here
and where was I before the day
that I first saw your lovely face
now I see it everyday
and I know
that I am, I am
I am the luckiest
what if I'd been born
fifty years before you
in a house
on the street where you lived
maybe I'd be outside
as you passed on your bike
would I know?
and in a wide sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
and I know
that I am, I am
I am the luckiest
I love you more than I have
ever found a way to say to you
next door there's an old man
who lived to his nineties
and one day passed away in his sleep
and his wife, she stayed
for a couple of days and passed away
I'm sorry I know that's a
strange way to tell you
that I know we belong
that I know
that I am, I am
I am the luckiest
Ben Folds
~The Luckiest
I love that I can finally say, "Hey, they're playing our song."
I love you and I feel more blessed than I ever have. You are a gift from God and the most exciting part of my life right now is discovering where God will take us next. I do feel lucky in the sense that God chose to bring you into my life and that you have become my best friend.
Thank you.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

So often I find it hard to put into words what is going on in my life. Not that this needs to be share time, but I never get tired of how amazingly God works through my seemingly endless doubt and stress and anxiety. How awesome is our God who looks past our every mistake and shortcoming and sees our potential, our heart, our desires. Even when I feel like I've been down a road a thousand times over, each time I look to my Jesus, my Savior, my heart rejoices that He is leading me towards His heart and His will again and again.

I am in the beginnings of a new relationship and let me just say that I feel very blessed. It's crazy how you forget that the small things can touch your heart. As independent as I am and as much as I know God is always taking care of me and leading me, I love having someone there who will always hold my hand and listen to me vent the stresses of my everyday madness. Or someone who will laugh with me when I act nerdy, look at me with love when I'm angry, and put up with my momentary nervous breakdowns that are a product of going to school here. Of course, there is so much more, but I guess I just have to say that I am very happy. I am dating a very good friend who loves God and cares for me deeply. I am excited to see what happens in the next few months.

"Praise God from Whom all blessing flow!"