Simple Thoughts

oh, the complicated life

So, it's 1:00 in the AM and I am still awake. Not really sure what has kept me up this late. I've been trying to finalize all my birthday plans! :) I feel like I should be more disappointed to be another year older. I guess it's just that block of time in my life that another year really doesn't make much difference. Being in school, in the dorms, surrounded by younger people...all these things help me feel younger (and yet older at the same time. Man, I'm confusing). Maybe they just help me stay focused on what really matters (not on the futility of what another year older is bringing).

I look at my life, the way it is now, and I feel like things that should be complicated are not and things that shouldn't be are. I pray always that I would keep my eyes above and not on the things of this world. This can prove to be very difficult when someone you love shuts you out of their life. When all you want to do is see them, talk to them, figure out what's going on and be there for them. But, if there's one thing I've learned in my life(and I hope there's more than one), it's that you can't be there for someone who won't let you be. Backing off and giving someone space is something I have a very hard time with. It would be easier if I "knew" everything was alright. But I don't and my faith is God and His hand in my life needs to be enough (and always should be).

Work is still great and very uncomplicated. Life is overall very good, and semi-complicated. This is me right now...

Birthday countdown: 15 days

posted by Katie @ 1:13 AM